What do you do when you feel like something is out of your control? I’m completely open about my status as a control freak, but just because I’m open about that doesn’t mean I like it or I’m proud of the fact that I have to be in control of things.
But what do you do when there are things in your life that are completely out of your control? I think that school has trained me to be a control freak to a certain extent. I’m in control of my grades, whether and when I do my thesis, what my topic is, if i do my homework, etc. It all falls back on me.
A subset of that is not knowing. I want to know. I want to know what is going to happen, I want to know why and when and how. Part of that is controlling in that I want to be able to prepare for stuff, and part of it is impatience…I hate surprises!!
I guess it all comes back to trust in my Lord…He knows whats up, He knows whats going to happen and i have to trust that everything i have and everything I do is from God…and lets face it– that can be super frustrating to a control freak like me.
So many questions unanswered in my life…Pray for my peace with not knowing!!
“We’re all Your’s God, Your’s God, everything is Yours…”
