its 5 (am) somewhere

oh hey, 5 am.

Haven’t seen you in awhile…

big big psychometrics project due tomorrow, but guess who finished it (against all odds, might i add…) I actually feel like one of those grad students you see in comic strips… i’m holding up the back of my hair with a binder clip, took a swig of coffee that had been sitting on my desk for around 4 hours, realized it was gross then took another swig cuz i needed it, have a permanent hunch from sitting in the same position since 6 pm, ate a dinner roll at 3 am, just turned the TV off as the morning news was coming on, and can’t really see through the blurriness of my contacts. welcome to getting your ph.d. folks. i’m sure you’ll run out and apply for your local program tomorrow cuz you’re thoroughly jealous.

i think I’ll take a shower so i can “sleep in” …in 4 hours.

nightnight.

tick tock. tick tock…

My tummy is not happy.
Not at all.

ooo! Robbye said that i don’t have to come to physical therapy anymore if i don’t want to. Or i can go in 2 weeks if i want and then make the decision. but its totally up to me! wooo!!!! my back is feeling so much better!! maybe i can start running again soon

i’m having hot flashes. all day. idk why.

oh! and if every person shows up for my study on thurs and friday, i’ll have 75 participants yessssssssss!!! only 125 more and i’ll be done with data collection!!

big week this week- presentation tomorrow, big homework due thursday. 3 christmas gatherings. 2 days of data collection. ohhhh boyyy….

i’m slap happy. idk why…. i just randomly started laughing awhile ago and i can’t stop. its kind of awkward, actually.

ok, i’m going to bed. gotta get up and crank out some work in the a.m…. lovely.

you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you’ll never know dear how much i love you, please don’t take my sunshine away (eleni was humming this @ dinner and its kinda stuck in the ol’ noggin….. whoops!)

a semblance of peace

welcome home to me!!

oh, how i missed it…

like a flood

11:11.

I was going to start this post by complaining.
But then i looked up and saw the clock said 11:11.

I’m not superstious, really. But there is something about catching that time on the clock. I always always ALWAYS make a wish when i see it, but it also does something to my thoughts. its like… a reset button. A reminder that i’m not alone, and that just maybe things aren’t worth complaining about.

That there is a reason for everything, so i shouldn’t complain but bear my burdens and carry on. (even when i reeeaaaaallllly want to complain.)

So i’ll just go to bed. i’m flying out @ 2:20. Anthony really wants to take me to the airport like 3408 hours early so he can get back for the first day of deer season with guns. I said no. We’ll see.. I’m hoping cbus has free wireless on my iTouch like i scored in Dulles. free wifi is always a beautiful surprise. if not? :/ …we’ll hope for the best.

alright….sleepytime. up early to say bye to the fam and finish packing up my crap! This time tomorrow?? My apartment ahhhhhh…..

His mercy reigns…. unending love, amazing grace

Boo x 5982

So if i spend the morning packing and getting stuff around only to realize i’m here until monday and today is only sunday….

Thats just lovely.

Guess I’ll see you tomorrow, Raleigh.

I wanna go back…
I wanna go home…
Please?

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If you like barbershop (and lets face it, who doesn’t??) you should check out “Straight No Chaser” and their rendition of 12 days of Christmas. I have been listening to that song all day, and man is it c.u.t.e! Then I got home and they were on TV. Whaddayaknow?

Where is dixie land anyway? I’d like to know. I always thought it was Tennessee…. do I have good reason to have always thought that? hmm…

(ooo, they just started singing the 12 days!! woo!!!)

todayyy… what did i do? umm… went to gma hoffman’s in the a.m. and saw gma and aunt marlene, aunt rita and ANDREW!! i miss that guy!! too bad he went and moved to upstate NY. didn’t get to see ali, though. booo….

hung out with miss kati tonight. went to church and then dinner and walmart. Good stuff…. she picked my brain, and i tried to pick her’s back. But i definitely am not a psychologist, as she pointed out about 3984 times. whoops! bring on the training and development any day. i suck at analysis. i can’t figure ppl out to save my life!! good thing i steered clear of clinical! that would have been a major fail. whoa…

one more day of ohio, then back to my space a real bed!! wooo!! and lots and lots of work to finish. lovely…

<3

and it breaks my heart, and it breaks my heart

*G*

“Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance.”

I saw the most adorable little kid today. Such a little peanut, probably around 2 years old, with brown shaggy hair and bright blue eyes behind the cutest little kid glasses…

He was singing in the middle of the aisle at kohl’s and knocked me in the knees with this huge roll of wrapping paper he was holding… i almost grabbed him and ran! He just looked so cute, in a little zip-up hoodie and jeans and little baby tennis shoes. ohhh man… so so so cute…

suckerpunch, anyone?

somedays, life is overwhelming. and then something little hits you between the eyes and gives you that next little boost. i wish i knew how to create the boost, because i sure am grateful when one comes along… and i’d gladly share that boost…

and when the world gets sharp and tries to cut you down to size
and makes you feel like giving in
oh, I will stay, I will rain, I will wash the words and pain away
and I will chase away the way we push
the way we pull

happy thanksgiving

welcome to thanksgiving. well, actually. thanksgiving is almost over, but whatever.

its the first time i’ve spent thanksgiving in ohio in a couple years… mmm… yeah. it was fun to cook and everything, and anthony and amber go back and forth between driving me nuts and making me laugh. whatever.

going shopping tomorrow with gma, shirley, phyllis, ann and amber. we’re not going until 8, so whatever. i wasn’t going to go, but i said the only way i would go is if they let me drive. a hard bargain, i know. but i won, so thats good. its my attempt at control, i suppose. but i know that at least if i drive i don’t have to be in the back, and i also don’t have to listen to a lot of the bickering and can be like “ok! i’m driving, not listening, not listening!!”

Had the church argument @ 8 this morning. I didn’t go. “You aren’t thankful for all that church gave you at all. You need to go, you say you love jesus but won’t go to church, etc.” I’m torn between “just suck it up” and “i’m an adult”… today i chose “i’m an adult.” ugh. ughhhhh….

There are good things and a couple really great friends here, and I’m excited to hang out and go to church on Sat with Kati

….but I miss home.

a year full of people and things to be thankful for…

happy thanksgiving.

<3 <3

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what a whirlwind!

I’ve been in ohio approximately 26 hours. In that time, I have had one disgusting car ride with my brother and dad, one disgusting morning with my brother and sister, one grilled cheese sandwich, and one night of singing and catching up…. my saving grace times 83….

seriously, my butt muscles are sore. its so awkward when that happens… is there really a more awkward place to be sore at?

Also my sister downloaded a virtual pet on my itouch. Gee…. thanks, dude. Just what I’ve always wanted. blahhh blahhh blahhhh..

Trying to mentally prep for the fam tomorrow. @ least its here so i can escape for awhile. Being the “weird one” that moved away means I’m always an easy target for questions. Most ppl I don’t care… but for some reason with my family its just… annoying. Cuz it always comes back to “i just don’t get why north carolina. why so far away? why grad school? baoirja;fkgaoignrnfaoieraksnvaoirfj”

yeah. thats how i pretty much feel about that.

bed, i suppose. I’m an old lady these days…

if i could find you now, things would get better…