when the wind blows

its soooo windyyy!!! its whipping through the breezeway of my apartment and its so loud!!

So…. i was working on my first SEM homework tonight… and i’m already kinda lost. I think I ended up figuring something out that might make sense and probably isn’t right. I know i did the first question right, but the second was… total guess.

I emailed an eye dr today, too…. i really hope they’re accepting new patients, cuz i need new contacts. everyone keeps telling me all the bad things that will happen b/c i’m wearing contacts for like 2 months after they should have been thrown away… whoops! something about red lines in my eyes permanently or ridges on my eyes or something… idk.

ooo! I ordered my guitar today- gma and gpa gave me money @ christmas to buy one, and i finally chose and ordered today. I’m excited! I reallyyyyyy want to learn, and I hope that I’ll find some time to do it… on the other hand, i’ve got homework like crazy, so maybe it’ll have to wait until summer… bummer.

oh my! the sermon @ church today was SO GOOD. It was all about how believing that God does God sized things, big huge miracles and the like, is really easy to believe. its believing that God cares enough to do the little things that really only matter to us that should awe us. Jbow also talked about how when you love someone, you really pay attention to the details- if you give them a gift, you want to get them the exact thing that they would like and not something generic. you want to show them you care and you pay attention and you love them dearly, so you go the extra mile. And that is the way we should think about God… we should “bother” Him with the details of our life, because He loves us and wants to be able to show it through those seemingly small details of our lives….

I’m sure i didn’t do it as much justice as Jonathan, but.. it was so good.

alright. i’m off to bed, bed, bed!! listening to the rain and falling fast asleep <3

Moi

I’m sleepy.

Back @ the hospital for the afternoon, then home and promptly on to homework from there. I’m only in week 2 of this semester (well, about to start 3) and i feel like its been 234908 weeks. I finished half my SEM work, printed out the IRT stuff and edited eleni’s thesis. Oh, and had dinner and did 2 loads of laundry. I’m beat.

Tomorrow, i told one of my lg girl’s i’d help her with a song to audition for her school’s musical. So… church, lunch, practice, finishing SEM, IRT, reading reading reading, prepping for lg, commons/lifegroup, then more homework and actual work-work, since i’ve got a Feb 1 deadline for my lit review…. afo;gnaoir. starting to really feel the stress pile up… craaaaapppp…

4 participants on monday, and 5 on wednesday. 81 to go!

GG and bed… g’night!

ghost adventures

I love any shows that have to do with people going into really really haunted places, taking all sorts of high tech gadgets and trying to find ghosts. Tonight’s episode was ghost adventures on this super haunted island in italy. Apparently there were all sorts of murderers executed there and plagues and all sorts of fun stuff. So the ghost hunters were taunting the ghosts and telling them to doing crazy stuff, and then getting all lightheaded, hearing footsteps and yelling and disembodied voices and moans and stuff. man, i love those shows!

a new family joined cp a couple months ago, a man and woman and their 2 daughters. they’re a cool family and its been fun getting to know them. the woman and i have hung out a few times and generally end up in some sort of ridiculous situation, like the waiters closing dos taquitos on us while we ignored them and kept talking, covering a panera table in sticky notes, hiding soda from our other friend and letting her think she lost her mind… stupid stuff like that. she’s 14 years older than me, and makes me promise that she isn’t my oldest friend, even though she probably is unless i thought about it real hard…. anyway, today one of their daughters was in a car accident and banged up pretty bad. if you feel so inclined, send some prayers up for their family and for their daughter’s healing process. they’re great people and i hope that everything gets better for them quickly!

actually i have older friends than her.. i’ve been writing to this elderly woman since i was 11 years old. i just wrote her a letter last week… thats 14 years of writing. damn, and i thought i couldn’t stick to anything. anyway, she’s like in her 80s or something and she’s my friend. and now i’m friends with my old boss from the library at undergrad, and she’s like…. in her 50’s…. whatever.

my neck is so tight, and my jaw.. i think that probably means i’m stressed. maybe i should do my homework for monday and tuesday. guess i’ll tackle that tomorrow… nothin’ to do the whole day! ahhh…. bring on the reading and statistics. oh, and nail painting. they’re lookin pretty fly right now…. NOT.

alright. time for episode 3 of gilmore girls and curling up under the blankies! night loves!!

coagulation

I had a really interesting thing to post today and then i promptly forgot what it was…. so…. fail on my part, whatever.

i feel like i’m having a bit of anaphylactic shock… my throat feels a bit like its closing up. hmpf. not cool….

i have a meeting tomorrow a.m. for my new job… eek! i did a little preliminary work but i’m afraid to do too much in case i’m not doing it right…. but what if i didn’t do enough?? aghhhh!! i’m nervous!!!

then ruch and i have a meeting about getting some funding to do research on NGOs… i really hope we can get the grant and get stuff together. i also looked tonight and if everyone signed up shows up, i’ll have 120 or so participants. only 80 more! lol… all my lifegroup friends said they’d help me, so i’ll have to figure out if i can make that work. that’d be sweet! i wish the thing was online, it would make my life so much easier….

oh! we got tickets to the State/Carolina game next week, too! We signed up for duke tix and got them but we didn’t know until it was too late…. that would have been a sweet game to go to! Bummer!! But we claimed our tix for next week, so that should be fun!

And eleni wants to know if i want to take the lead on some research we started last semester… i think i’m going to do it. I don’t have very much research i’m first author on (only 1 other article).. so i think it would be good for me to do that, even though its not really in my “area”… whatever!

Alright, meeting in a matter of hours (ok, its @ 11, but whatever)… time for an episode of Gilmore Girls, then b.e.d! night loves!!

burn

I’ve sat out on the balcony twice today… i think thats more than the total amount i’ve sat out there since i moved here…

anyway… this morning i went for a run, and i got to the point where i had like 1/4 of a mile left and i didn’t want to move anymore. i didn’t want to run, or walk, or even crawl. i wanted to be in my apartment and not moving at all. So i did what any good runner does (or so i’ve heard) and i sprinted home.

terrible idea.

in the midst of the desperation, i forgot the minor fact that i am clearly NOT a runner. so i died moderately. but i went right out on the balcony, turned on some praise music and had myself a little meditation time. it was so nice. i am sure that the people in my complex were thinkin who is that weird girl sitting on her porch meditating, but hey…. whatever works

so then tonight i took a little trip to target and trader joe’s.. which, by the way, i had this opinion that trader joe’s was really expensive, but i went and its so cheap. a lot of things are cheaper than teeter! I was shocked! and its nice food, good food! WOO!! sweet!!

So anyway, I came home and i was sitting around cuz i thought i had one reading for IRT. Turns out, rather than saying “read through BIRT 5″ which would be one chapter, it said “Read the list through BIRT 5″…. which was like 7 readings. so I’ve finished 5 of them and decided it would be appropriate to take a hot chocolate on the balcony break. hence, 2 visits to the balcony today

I really can’t wait till it gets really warm and stays warm. ahhh!!

alright. reading the last 2 and watching a new show before bed nightnight <3

I’ve seen miracles just happen

B-E-A-UTIFUL!

It was a GORGEOUS day out! Holy moly…. i even wore a dress. I love it when its warm!!! Ok, so it was FREEZING in my house and i almost wore gloves to work on my computer, but outside it was lovely!!

AND! I have 5 new participants tomorrow for my thesis. Only 90 to go… although I did realize i have to be completely finished by April 2 in order to graduate this semester…. so come on 90 people! Lets goooo!!!

I have taken up flossing. Oh, and food journalling. Both are monotonous and boring, but they are both making me healthier.. or something And i started running again.. man oh man. what is this?

I was bored and feeling kinda low yesterday so I took a whole bunch of really bright post-its and wrote quotes all over them. song lyrics, bible verses, inspirational quotes, all sorts of junk. and i put them all around my big mirror in my bathroom. I realized after the fact that it might look funny when ppl use my bathroom, but i like it so i’m leaving it I’ll post a pic someday, but right now i’m not entirely sure where my camera cord is…. whoops…

Tomorrow… lunch with miss eleni, who i haven’t seen or talked to in awhile, data collection, then cross-cultural psy for 3 hours… woooooo, i know you’re all very jealous

bed, bed, bed, cuz i’m BORED! i actually did work like… weeks ahead of time tonight… although, i haven’t done my work for work on friday. details. that’s what tomorrow is for!

nightnight

achoo!

what a weird day— since when does it thunderstorm in january? I was taking a nap on the couch and all of a sudden it thundered really loud and i jumped up and looked around… i was so confused! welcome to north carolina!

it was so awesome to hear all the things that crosspointe/joy in hope are doing in haiti…. just today, JIH coordinated 5 planes and 12 helicopters landing at Jacmel… and tomorrow, JIH has coordinated 4 planes showing up at 10am in Jacmel with 2600lbs of supplies, and close to 20 flights in total tomorrow.. not to mention airbuses delivering supplies into Santiago so we can load up supplies back and forth, along with 16 more doctors ready to go…Once the planes get on the ground, the team is distributing supplies to the outlying places that need it by taking helicopters out to the rural areas, along with distribution in Jacmel. JBow was talking about it today and it was just the coolest thing…. I can’t explain it, but it was just…. very cool…

Day off tomorrow… i should get ahead with some work, ew. trying to make meal plans and workout plans… i have to keep losing weight or i’ve got to go back on the meds, and i DO NOT want that!! its just such a pain to meal plan! and cook? ughhh!!!

i was so grumpy today. hmpf. not. a. fan. I’m ready for january to be OVER! please??

nightnight <3

We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, Love
That’s enough for me

heavy duty

I do not like this.
I do not like this, Sam I am.

That was my favorite book when I was a kid… Green Eggs and Ham? That Dr. Suess. I wonder why he went by Dr. Suess. Why Dr? I’m sure I could google it, but I’m too tired. Anyway… I loved it so much, my aunt made me a casserole with green eggs and ham. I thought it was disgusting and refused to eat it… but mom made me, and it was delicious. I just thought that green eggs looked awful, but clearly it was just food coloring. I was like 5. give me a break.

It has been so nice outside. Ok, well its raining now, but it smells like a beautiful spring rain so it doesn’t bother me that much. But i’ve been running outside, in shorts… ahhh…. i love it. i don’t want it to get cold again, please? I hate the cold

I’ve got Mr. Braeden tomorrow! I love that kid!! Apparently the family just got back from disney, so that’ll be fun to hear about. Mr. B-man dressed up like Woody for halloween, and then like randomly 2 weeks ago i was with him and he throws a ball at my head and says “woody”… hahaha… i don’t have the slightest idea what made me think of that but i’m a little out of it right now i think.. so i’m pretty sure this is more of a stream of consciousness than anything coherent.

Ruchi and I watched this movie snatch tonight. it was really gruesome and nasty and there was a lot of violence, but all of that was completely justified by the fact that Brad pitt was in it and he didn’t wear clothes most of the time, and he had the hottest tattoos all over his amazingly breathtakingly gorgeous body…. holy crap. one man should not be allowed to be that hot. but dammnnnnn, i’m glad he is!!! amen.

alright. sleeeepppyyyyy time. i’m bound and determined to sleep tonight. here we go, loves! <3

don’t it always seem to go that ya don’t know what ya got ’til its gone…

Aches

I know its late. My head hurts. Its kinda hurt all day. Idk why… i need to relax my jaw and my shoulders. Hmmmm…. the would probably work nicely…

Got up and ran this morning…. it was such a BEAUTIFUL day! I even wore shorts! I found a new route to run so that the lady that gave me her number didn’t see me. I really feel like she probably was a nice person, but i try to avoid potentially awkward situations if possible… and while this new route doesn’t have the bun-busting hill the old route had, it does provide a way for me to be able to run outside without having to think about running into her. whateverrrrrrrr…

ruch and i went to this french bakery for lunch… it was pretty good. they offer cooking classes, which sound like fun but a 3 hour class is like 75 bucks…. so… i’m thinkin….. no. i’ll pull out a cookbook, thanks!

took my paperwork into work today, so hopefully i can get started on this job. i have a meeting with dr. d on friday to go over the stuff i’ve already done… now if i could just get paid for that, get my tuition covered, and get some health insurance i don’t have to pay for out of pocket? that, dear friends, would be spectacular!

i am going to bed. i am going to sleep, and i am going to sleep in! bam! take that, insomnia!

<3

retro

Project runway is quite the trip, i will say that. ha!

i’m so tired. i need to go to bed. i’ve been staying up until 2 or 3 watching haiti coverage on CNN every night… i just can’t bring myself to turn it off. Its like… i know i can’t do anything, but somehow by knowing everything that is going on, its almost like i’m there. I can’t even explain the feeling of knowing i wouldn’t be much help, knowing that i’d be terrified, knowing that its the hardest thing many people will ever go through, but also wanting to be there and feeling like a piece of my heart is there.

luckily, i managed to get a very very nice break today well, i mean.. i had class and all, so that was a drag. but i had some amazing laughs, even in the midst of sadness… it felt so nice….

then tonight i had lifegroup.. i really love my lifegroup. they were cracking me up– talking all about butchering cows, american idol, and dog sitting… such randomness

alright. i’m going to go to bed. i’m going to sleep. i’m going to go to bed and go to sleep. mmhmmmm….

below are a few pictures- the first is a picture of my haiti team sitting on a balcony at Cyvadier Plage, a hotel/restaurant we had dinner @ on our last night in Haiti. the second is a picture of a beautiful palm tree and cove standing on that balcony. the third is a picture taken by Gwenn Mangine from standing in the cove of the same balcony where we stood…it obviously no longer exists. you can see the salmon colored railing in the background of the first picture and falling down the hill in the last picture. just one of the many beautiful buildings that has been destroyed…